A Loser needs a direction.......

1. Hello peepa, how’s everyone getting? I hope everyone of you is doing fine. Well, due to the reason that I am really dumb and suck in decision making; therefore I need to come to you guys who are still visiting this page and gimme some suggestion/ advise.
   As you all know I’ve been torturing mentally and physically since day one when I start working in this freaking hatred XX semiconductor and till now everything remains the same. I got bullied like no body business, I argued with my supervisor (last Friday) and I just need to do plenty of extra tasks if compare with my colleague whom getting the same pay and having a same position as I do.
   
   Honestly, I feel like tendering my letter which I’ve prepared long long time ago, but I’ve no guts to do so due to the current economy conditions. Sigh. I feel like I’m learning nothing not progressing and I am just working for the sake of the $$
   
   At the first few months I thought it were I myself not used to the working life, so I asked myself to stay and fight it over. However, after months of fighting my situation still remain the same and I really fell like rising up the white flag and leave. (I am really tired)
   
   I’ve escalated my concern to the section head as I am overloaded and I did asked for department transfer, but just no one gimme a damn. I feel so scared and down every morning when I know that I’ve to go to the goddamn place to work. (Do you feel the same as I felt?)
   
   I never stop asking myself is this my own problem or just the job really not suitable for me? I am so lost and I do not know what to do. I am looking for direction but I failed. Worse come to worst is I dare not to make decision for myself any longer. Sigh. I’ve cried over and over of this work and the stresses that I do not know how to handle at all.
   
   Hence, to all my dearest friends, could you pls kindly let me know what should I do?

1. Tender(my notice of termination is 60days) and start all over again
2. work till I get a new offer
3. Tender, work for another 60days then only think of what to do.
   
   Thanks

1 day memory lost

has anyone suffering short term memory lost for one day? what i meant is that you woke up in the morning doing all the daily stuffs like usual good day but somehow after that you seemed to be forgotten about whether you had your breakfast or not?. ok, all of you must be wondering now who is the one i mentioned.

sad to say, it's my father and it happened last week. my father suffered short term memory lost for an incredible one day. he had forgotten everything like a secret agent being erased his memory for new missions. my mum told me it was serious because he seemed to forget about what he did in the last seconds, minutes and hours. i began to worry at that time considering it was so unexpected and i bet you would only see this much often in hk dramas. my conclusion was my father should be suffered from alzheimer which turned him into a lost person but i excluded this because to my knowledge it wont happen overnight just like that.

my father was in denial that he forgot many things he did that day and as time goes by, he finally realized the truth and even joked to me and said "dont know whether i really have that alzheimer disease or not"....my respond was "hahahaha, it can't be lah"..."don't worry, go see doctor and make appoinment for neurology specialist". "forget anything also nevermind, just don't forget that you still have 2sons ah"....he laughed out loud and said..."wont lah"

conversation stopped at 6:45:20pm and i was on my way back home in a bus expecting discussion with my brother later regarding this matter. the next morning i called my mum and got to know that dr.ong (not hanyoung) had made appointment for neurologist in sabah and my father was going to do some sort of MRI or brain scanning. i talked to my father and he told me that he managed to remember everything except what happened yesterday. it's weird though but the result of the MRI was positive.his brain and spinal cords are normal brushing out the possibility of alzheimer disease and minor strokes. the neurologist said it's normal for old people to have this short term memory lost and told us not to worry and some more he/she said "there is no scientific explanation regarding this yet". sounds weird but it's officially END. my father is ok now.

my friends out there, take care and stay healthy. like darren said, GOD BLESS YOU! wtf

Weird III.

i'm gonna make this short today cz its not the first time.

Location - Kepong Foodcourt
Time - afternoon
Darren - Alone

After my meeting i dropped by a food court to have a quick lunch. while i was eating, suddenly an old lady appeared from no where and stopped by my table. she's like 78 years old, holding a budha figurine. she has a smiley face and looked very friendly, just like any grandma would look like.
She then leaves a piece of laminated card with buddhist prayers on it and signalled me to donate.

This moment i tell myself, yeah, im not gonna talk to her, not gona donate anything for christ' sake! i finally gathered enough courage to say " no money, sorry."

OH DAMN, the freakin 5 bucks is left on the table( change from the chicken rice seller). She point at the 5 bucks and say .. few dollars also okayy.. please.. gimme some money for my meal.. please..

suddenly , this turned into begging rather than voluntary donation. 公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量公德无量.

She repeats.

and guess what, ure right.
and i gave her my 5 bucks.


this moment the chicken rice that i was eating sucked bigtime. i watches her walks away helplessly as i regret for what i have done 5 seconds ago.



WHY ME ?


A. Admit it, u look noob.
B. Not noob, just too kind to be bullied by bad people.
C. since it wont help even u dont talk to them, next time dont eat alone, darren. stick with the crowd.
D. Go back ipoh lah u

Weird II.

This time the location is at Cheras, infamous for its high crime rate and ah lians.

I parked my car on the parking bay near a busy street, right after i got my ass out of the car. An middle aged Mang-ka-li come to me and say " hey, you look handsome."

ok thats the end of the story.



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ok just kidding. but he said that to me and im completely in conscious state. he say i'm handsome, and i look lucky and he said he look like me when he was young ( is that even a compliment?) ok nvm. after that, he passed me a blank paper then he rolled into ball. He ask me to hold it tightly in my palm and so i did. i was a lil worried and thought of the last incident where i got cheated some money and what my mom said to me " don't talk to strangers". but still, i held the paper in my palm tightly.

He looked deeply into my eyes all the time, like he was in love with me. He ask me to think of a number, concentrate on the number, 4 numbers. At this time i could only think of my favorite number 8.. since it started with 8 then i rather go with the number 8-2-1-0, the last four digit of my H/P number. Before i decide on that number, i changed my mind again to 8-2-7-0, just to give a twist to any other magic show we see on tv. yes, magic, this is what you would expect when someone ask you to hold something and ask you to think of a number.

I wasn't expecting an mang-ka-li to perform a david blaine magic right infront of me. But guess what, after i told him the number in my head. he silently wrote it down to his palm, with a ball pen. and after i watched he asked me to open the paper in my palm. Yes, as creepy as it seemed, the number is 8-2-7-0. Just like the one i told him while i holding the paper tight in my left palm.

I was amazed, stunned and speechless for 4 seconds. he looked at me and ask me to buy the number at 4D. He warned me not to mention this to girlfriends, mother, father, brother or anyone. and the number will hit the jackpot on wednesday night. yeah, go buy it.

i said okay and he knows he got my balls in his basket. the next line would be his well polished sales pitch that probably he did it 602148 times before. "TEMPLE MONEY , GIVE SOME TEMPLE MONEY. give me some temple money, some ppl give 50 some ppl give 20"
yet again, i dont have freakin much money in my pathetic wallet. thanks god, if not i dont know how much i would have given him. I end up giving him rm 5.

He walked away and left me stranded in the middle of the busy street. with one small scrambled paper written 8270.

and as expected, the number didnt happen on the next day. DAMN IT. luckily i didnt buy.


Friends, what do you think about the incident above?

A. You stupid dumbass, got cheated over and over again. awww.. must be that cute innocent look that attracted hairy bad people
B. Worth it, RM 5 to watch a david blaine magic LIVE.
C. You should have bought 4D and not told you MUM about it. (ok i admit, i told my mum)
D. He's not human being.
E. Darren, DONT talk to strangers ever again, go back to ipoh where everyone is kind, just like you.